WE'RE GETTIN' HITCHED!!!!!

yes i am not imagining it LOL we are tying the knot!!!! This post is kinda late in coming, but its the first real chance i have had( and that i remembered) to update this. *sigh* im bad at this i know.....but he did indeed pop the question under rhema's lights in the park

I KNOW! how sweet :) and he even did it at the wishing well

but anyways we have set the date a ways off April 14th 2012, but it works best for us

And since i know you are dying to see the rings here ya go


this is the whole set...........

this is just the engagement ring

We even have his ring!!! yes i know we have plenty of time but he found one he feel in love with at a really good deal so we got it

i really like it too!!!!!

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So not sure what to title this. I just dont think there are the right words to sum it up. Yesterday, for the first time in my life, I found out what true, unfiltered fear feels like. Can I just say i never want to feel that again, but sadly i don't think it will be the last time this unnamed person will cause that feeling. It makes it worse knowing that all you can do is watch the way it all unfolds, hold you breath, feel the pain it causes, and do nothing........ What can you do to help and change the situation when they don't want help? What can you do when your eyes are dry and you're blue in the face? The answer- NOTHING. and that makes it worse. When all you can do is watch it go on and on like a record that's stuck and keeps replaying itself, and hope that you never get a phone call saying its all over.........it hurts. Sorry i know this is melancholy, and i'm ok. I have a wonderful life and many things to cherish. I am happy with how my life is going, but i just wish it would spill over into his choices. So what do i do? Is there really anything you can do? A brick wall won't move just because you push it and tell it to go. Am I a bad person because i do nothing? I wish I had the answers or the solution. People don't change because they are told to. They change because they want to. What can I do if they don't think they need to change.

nothing...........

Thoughts

So this is just obscure thoughts. Some will understand, others may not. The people you love are the ones you will always worry about. Most of the time you hope that your fears are ungrounded, but sometimes you have good right to fret. You look up and see the potential for great and good, you hold the knowledge that this person could be great, that they are so smart if they will only use their head and think. You watch every wrong move made, every bad step taken, and you sit back and do nothing because you know there is nothing left you can do. Your heart will probably break at this realization, but still you watch...helpless. Free will is the greatest gift we have. It makes some of the most treasured moments in your life. It also brings the biggest heartaches. Will we be on opposite sides of glass before you understand?
Since i have a song for most all my moods here is one for today.........one of my favorites



What About Georgia?
Miranda Lambert

You draw it out like a highway
With every word you'd say
Excuses for the answers that you lack
Your mama’s still the steady ground
you walk on every day
And your daddy’s still the monkey on your back
Did you find all you thought you’d find out in the wild, wild west
You took a little piece of home and you threw away the rest

You say you’re livin’ on the edge
and I think you’re hangin’ from a ledge
Too scared to hold the hand
that wants to help you up
Are you the man you thought you’d be
by the time that you turned 33?
Are you still a bullet in your daddy’s gun?
Don’t forget boy you’re your mama’s only son
She’s at home and she’s been prayin' for ya
So what about Georgia?

I saw your sister yesterday
Austin’s five and on his way
Looking for some shoes that he can fill
He said that he’d be just like you
the coolest guy he ever knew
And he’d find you when
he lost his training wheels
I looked in his big blue eyes
and I saw you again
He’s hungry for a life he ain't ready to begin

You say you’re livin’ on the edge
And I think you’re hangin’ from a ledge
Too scared to hold the hand
That wants to help you up
Are you the man you thought you’d be
By the time that you turned 33?
Are you still a bullet in your daddy’s gun?
Don’t forget boy you’re your mama’s only son
She’s at home and she’s been prayin' for ya
So what about Georgia?

I guess you didn’t realize it’d take you quite this long
To figure out that being free is right where you belong

You say you’re livin’ on the edge
And I think you’re hangin’ from a ledge
Too scared to hold the hand
That wants to help you up
HEY! Are you the man you thought you’d be
by the time that you turned 33?
Are you still a bullet in your daddy’s gun?
Don’t forget boy you’re your mama’s only son
She’s at home and she’s been prayin' for ya
So what about Georgia?

What about Georgia? yeah
What about Georgia Georgia? Yeah
What about Georgia?

Vacation

So this is a little behind....oh well deal with it lol :)

Adam and I took our first real vacation together. We didn't go far or anywhere exotic, just headed out to Branson for a 4 day weekend. It was the best 4 day weekend ever! So nice to just sit back and relax. We were both needing it desperately. We also got to spend time together without having to worry about anything. Good quality time together is an essential part of any relationship you want to keep, especially with your partner. So overall we had a success.
We did see 3 Shows while there. The first was the Showstoppers on the Showboat Branson Belle. It was pretty neat and the food was actually good.......enormous.......but good. The ship was pretty and kinda neat.

We also saw the amphitheater show at Silver Dollar City. It was GAC Nights and it was pretty good. We saw The Dixie Stampede. love LoVe LOVED IT! They make you eat with your hands though LOL it wasn't too bad. Good food too. Adam was so hungry he ate all of what they brought. Each person gets a whole rotisserie chicken, herb baked potato, roll, vegetable soup, corn on the cob, and an apple turnover. YUMMY!
Well we did have a downside to the trip. At the Bass Pro in Springfield, I set my iPod down and it walked off (with help) GRRR. I have decided i will not let it ruin our trip though, it is material and easily bought again. But we did have a blast there. They were remodeling so we didnt get the whole massive experience, but we made do :)

But i think i wore him out

HAHAHA well that is all :)

Rodeo Dreams

So this past weekend, Adam and I went to the PRCA 2010 Rodeo. Let me tell you i have always loved rodeos and this one was no different. Unfortunately, because either i am of the blonde persuasion or I am prone to memory loss (either works most days lol) I left my camera at home and missed getting pics of it all (insert grrr here). So I will steal others :)

These beauties are the Priefert Percherons of the Texas Thunder. They are beautiful to watch. and did i mention they are no small horse? Averaging about 18 hands they weigh in about 2200lbs, and you sure can feel them coming at you.

Now onto one of my favorite parts of rodeo....my ladies. I really love watching the barrel racers because i have always wanted to do it. Part of me still does, but sometimes you put away one dream for another. If i ever got the chance i would probably learn how, but dont know that i would ever go to rodeo with it. Here some of the girls from this weekend.

 yep would love to do that.

Well all in all, it was a great rodeo. Good bulls and Broncs meant fewer riders got times and the ones who did were definitely worth the watch. Clay Walker and Eli Young Band were awesome. Could have done without finding the hole out on the dirt while dancing that hurt my ankle, but you win some you lose some.
Well that is all for now :)

Thanks for nothing guys

So I would just like to give a big thanks to Hibdon Tires........for a whole lot of NOTHING!!!!!! When I take a car in to have something fixed, I expect it to come back fixed. I didnt pay for them to stare at it for 4 hours. UGH oh well glad adam is the one dealing with that and not me......poor guy at hibdon LOL
So counting down to vacation! YAY!!!!! we are in desperate need for a few days of blissful workless fun. all work and no play makes for some stressful days. well that is all :)

Tell them they are special...

So not sure why I am thinking about these things right now. Maybe it has to do with people I know and what they are going through, maybe things I have seen recently. Either way I think about it.

We were talking the other night, and I told Adam that i will never understand how such a young soul would feel that there was nothing left for them. How could they think they have so little to live for? They have everything ahead of them, if only they will reach out and take it. Where was their support when they were down? Their shoulder to cry on? Who told them they were beautiful with sleep in their eyes and an oversized t-shirt on? Who reminded them they couldn't live without their smiling face everyday? I just don't know.

There are some kids right now who had a plan. With the lose of their beloved friend heavy on their hearts, they realized that they need to reach out to one another. They need to connect with more than a text. Let each other know that they are not alone, that they have each other when things fall apart. So with this on their minds, they decided to give up texting (yes teenagers willingly give up texting) in his memory to reach out and touch a heart. To say "I am here" or "You are someone, you are special". I know none of these kids personally, but they touch my heart. Now for those reading this who know what I am referring to, yes i understand that things are not as they first seemed. I realize all of it was accidental, but it is the point I am trying to make. There are so many that is was not just an accident.......and this breaks my heart.

So tell them they are loved. Make them see how beautiful they are. Show them they are special. Don't let them stand alone in the dark. Take them the sunshine and stand with them in the light.

Miranda Lambert has a song I love that i heard earlier that probably started this whole spiel but it is beautiful and makes me think of so many people.

Virginia Bluebell

Carrying the weight on the end of a limb
You're just waiting for somebody to pick you up again
Shaded by a tree, can't live up to a rose
All you ever wanted was a silent place to grow

Pretty little thing, sometimes you gotta look up
And let the world see all the beauty that you're made of
'Cause the way you hang your head nobody can tell
You're my Virginia Bluebell, my Virginia Bluebell

Even through the snow a flower can bloom
You just need a little push, spring is coming soon
Umbrella in the rain, let it roll off your back
Weather what you can, realize what you have

Pretty little thing, sometimes you gotta look up
And let the world see all the beauty that you're made of
'Cause the way you hang your head nobody can tell
You're my Virginia Bluebell

Put a little light in the darkest places
Put a little smile on the saddest faces

Pretty little thing, sometimes you gotta look up
And let the world see all the beauty that you're made of
'Cause the way you hang your head nobody can tell
You're my Virginia Bluebell, my Virginia Bluebell

Ok we are gonna try this blogging thing

So i have given in and decided to start blogging. if nothing else it will get me thru the slow times in my day.
So i have less than a day til the BIG 21 :) and already i have received something :)

these beauties came from memaw, papaw, mom and shay
THANK YOU!!! i love them!
well that is all